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Blank canvas= brush + a liter of acrylic paints + chromatic formulas + right hand + my self

Have you ever seen a formula like this? Of course you haven’t, because it just came out from my brain, Tracy’s brain. I might sound weird, starting a paragraph with a strange formula and talking in third person. But so what? It’s me. Who said I need to be like other people?
As you can realize from my first sentence (and my second sentence and my third sentence),

I am not a good writer. English is my second language and I feel more convenient speaking Korean because I lived in Korea for fifteen years. Ironically, I am not that good at writing Korean either. Whenever am writing Korean, I have to check the spellings in the internet. That makes me feel a bit embarrassed.

I call myself a balanced machine. I am half good at almost everything. I am half good at English. I am half good at Korean. I am half good at singing. I am half good at talking fast. I am half good at math. I am half good at science. But there is one thing that’s more than just a half.

It’s art. Sometimes I feel like art is my savior. Without art, I would be an average half good at everything girl who lives an average life. But with art, I am different. I will live a life that I am fully satisfied with. Unless, it’s not a life because life is given to us so that we can enjoy it and have fun! Of course not everyone has a fun life. Whenever I experience an embarrassing moment or get a bad grade in my test, I say to myself, “I am the luckiest person in the whole world.”

Why? Because I am really lucky. I have parents, I have a brother, I have a house, I go to an international school, I have friends, I have a dog, and I have art. What can I have more? I already have everything.

When I am feeling gloomy, I practice Tracy’s religion. The front page of the bible says, “We can’t have everything in life but we can think like we have everything; everything that’s worthwhile to keep.”

You think I am crazy? You think I am saying RANDOM THINGS? But I think it’s a way of expressing myself. Who said I have to write three paged essay and have perfect grammar structures? I am not the type who would follow the rules because when everyone’s following the same rules, it would be boring.

Instead, I have my own set of rules

1. Clean my room
2. Redesign Naver blog layout
3. Write on my Xanga site
4. Watch dramas
5. Do Photoshop experiment
6. Talk to friends
7. Make converse pencil cases
8. Sing like everyone’s watching
9. Read Harry Potter
10. Take photos

You think these are too light to be rules? But guess what, who can endure without watching TV for three weeks? Who can bear without internet? Aren’t these rules that keep our lives fun, happy and stress relieving?

Sometimes, I feel so confused that my brain feels like it’s going to burst. I am always curious about life and human beings. We are creatures who can create, think critically and most importantly, learn.

I ask myself, “What would have happened if people didn’t think too hard? Why are there intelligent people? Are there really smart people?”

When I look at algebra questions, I wonder how bored the mathematicians had to be in order to create such formulas and complex equations. They obviously didn’t think like average people. Like me (there goes the sarcasm).

I guess I have to stop writing now. Not only can’t I write properly in proper English, I am tired of philosophical thoughts.

One thing I should think to myself at all times: Don’t think about the past, just think about the present because there are already too many things I have to learn in the present